Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Right in the feels

There are four more school days until spring break and it feels like six months of work between now and then. I'm overwhelmed and overworked and too tired. My ex texted me last night and I have finally reached the anger stage of my post breakup grieving period. I'm so angry. She's so much more beautiful than when we were dating and she's over me and I'm not over her and all I want to say to her or anyone is fuck you. Yeah, I broke up with her, and now I'm gonna be mad about it. I'm angry because I feel like I'm losing, in love, in friendship, in life. There's so much there right below the surface and I need a fucking break. I don't know how I got here, but there's a thin line between sad and lonely, and deeply bitter. 

“Do you think anger is a sincere emotion or the timid motion of a fragile heart trying to beat away its pain?”  -Andrea Gibson

Some songs: We Used to Wait  Heartbeat • Shout