Friday, October 19, 2012


I should've gone home for my high school homecoming. My girlfriend won homecoming queen and I had to hold back tears when my mom told me because I am so so sad that I wasn't there. I'm so proud of her and I know that she deserves it more than anyone ever in the world, and so many wonderful things happened to her tonight and everyone is just so proud and loving. And I wish I could've been there to hug her and cry because she's so beautiful and I wish that I could say "EVERYBODY, SHE'S MY GIRLFRIEND" and I just love her so much and I don't know what to do. I love her and this distance is killing me because I don't want to miss a thing. And I just need a hug.

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Keep moving forward

I got an email from my academic advisor saying it's time to make appointments to be advised on classes for next semester, so shit. I went to a meeting about this interdisciplinary program that will let me get a certificate and take some cool classes, so I'm trying to decide if I want to do the conflict resolution branch or the human rights and social justice branch. But then for funnies, I decided to look at non profits and various organizations that I may want to intern for in college and I feel very frustrated because none of them are exactly what I want. I don't know what I want. But three hours ago, I had some idea of what I wanted- that if I apply to the human rights and social justice branch that I am definitely decided on, I will have all the skills I need to be a valuable participant of the human rights organization that is perfect for me. Now, I feel lost. I know that I don't have to know right now, but I want to get started. I really just want to work at Disney World and travel and not do anything.

If anyone has any suggestions of cool organizations, that would be awesome. If anyone can direct my life goals, also appreciated.